Too Much Information About My Sexual Preferences

Venting about my extreme stress, my sexual preferences, and how they're connected.


So I'm becoming more aware of the fact that I'm quite sexually submissive; and while I've been particularly horny the last many weeks, it didn't matter a whole lot since there isn't anyone to help out with that particular craving.

Being perpetually horny, I bought some sexy panties and some garter-style thigh highs; I feel sexy and confident wearing them, but it was okay that there wasn't anyone to see me in them.

But then a bunch of things happened that were out if my control and made me anxious and freaked out.

So lately, that lust for not being in control, not being worried about messing up or doing something wrong, has become more of an intense need.

I was so desperate, I almost hooked up with a stranger who was my age that I met on Tinder. I was being safe, seeing their face several times, meeting somewhere public, and telling a friend where I was going.
This stranger agreed to help out with my submissive needs; we brought condoms, I brought ties and lube... we met up and it all would have happened, except the place we were going to fell through at the last minute.

So...fairly desperate.

I just... really need to be held down, have my arms tied up, have my hair pulled, being bitten and given hickies, being told that I'm doing good and that they're proud of me.

Getting fucked, sucking someone off, getting eaten out, and/or getting teased would all be fantastic, but not totally necessary.

I need to not be the one in control, to not be the one with responsibilities and things that can be done badly.
I need for someone to tell me what to do so I'm not doubting myself, about whether I'm doing things right.


I need to be able to relax.

Turning 18

It's like picking the petals off a flower.

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It's going in circles

Hey

I don't regret what we did.

I loved it, and had a lot of fun.

I'd like to do so again, eventually.

I don't know if you feel the same way,
but like I said,
Mad bonkers.

I think we have a lot of things that we need to talk about.